Psalm

In keeping with the Psalm theme from Sunday mornings in April, I thought I would share with you a psalm I wrote as a junior in high school. circa 1992 (this will also appear in the newsletter)


I love You Lord.
I know I don't always show it.
I may never show it.
I know I hurt You when I have impure thoughts.
I know I hurt You when I talk back to my parents.
I don't want to hurt You Lord, but I always manage too.

You always give me another chance, but each time I usually end up asking for another.
I'm tired of that.
I want to use the chance as if it is my last.
I know I may stumble, but failure is half of trying.
I know I can depend on You to pick me back up.
But I just haven't been able to put all my trust in You.

I say I want You to have my life, but for some reason I always seem to take it back thinking I can do better by myself.
I know I can't, but I always try.
Why?
Why can't I let You lead me?
You are the greatest!
But still I insist on doing it myself.

No more.
I want You to have everything.
Each day when I wake, I want to give my life to You.
So You may use me as a witness.
I want to give You my problems, so I won't have to worry anymore.
I want to be so close to You Lord that I can feel Your breath on my face as You whisper Your will for me into my ear.

I love You Lord!
My heart is for You!
Not the Christian girl I hope to someday meet.
Not basketball.
And especially not Satan!
I want to protect it, because it is Yours.
My life is the most I can give You, but it will still never repay what You have given me!

Franciscan Benediction

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.

May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain in to joy.

And may God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world, so that you can do what others claim cannot be done.

I hope to preach on this someday. Better yet I hope to pray and live it...someday.

Friday Video

Video done by Tripp Crosby and Prodigal John

Thanks

I wanted to say thank you to everyone who helped out with last nights association meeting. Everything went really well, and it was a good night.


Last night also inspired me to do something. I have been feeling very "blah" and uninspired for the last 6 weeks or so, and I just can't seem to shake this feeling. So, I am going to begin praying everyday for the next 40 days, that I will see the opportunities God puts in front of me to love someone. I figure a lot of my "blahness" comes from the fact that I am spending to much time worrying and thinking about Cody, and not enough looking outside of myself. I also figure asking God to show me the opportunities to love others will open doors with believers and unbelievers alike. Why 40 days, I don't know, it just sounds good.

So, I hope between now and May 18th I will have plenty of stories to share about how God has opened my eyes and my heart to loving others.

Ramblings

I love British humor

Apple computers are the best

I like the new New Balance commercials about having a relationship with running

However, I do not like running. I might like it if I was in shape, but getting in shape would involve running. It's a vicious cycle.

Am I waisting my youth?

Greatest game I've seen in person: ENMU 34 New Mexico Highlands 31, Sept. 13, 1997

If everyone lived each day like it where their last, no one would ever go to work